Summer is almost over...

And that makes me sad.

I loved every minute of it, though. I just feel like I'm not really ready for senior year to start. I still don't feel like a senior. It's like junior year was just yesterday. Ah yes, all the craziness of junior year, with 7 AP classes…

Well, yeah, it had its good moments. Like every single AP Calculus AB class ever. (Our new teacher has been sent from heaven, I swear. So looking forward to BC.) And AP Bio. Dear god, I’m going to miss that class so much. (At least I’m taking Enviro this year.) But then, there was the insanity that was AP Chem, with a teacher who tried his best but still couldn’t prepare us completely for the exam, the emotional rollercoaster that was AP Physics B, where half the time I felt like I had no idea what I was doing, where I thought I’d be lucky if I made a 4… And then APUSH. The one class that, for some reason, I could not stand.

Thank goodness I did well on my AP exams, though. At the end of all that, it’s good to know that it was worth it. Five 5’s and two 4’s, indeed. (I’m thanking my lucky stars for that 4 on Chem. There is a God, and he is merciful. But really, I’m still amazed by that 5 on Physics. And I think I will be for the rest of the foreseeable future.)

Anyway. It’s August 18th. I’ve got just one week left before senior year officially begins. God I don’t even want to think about it. I spent my summer volunteering at a bunch of places and doing a lot of college visits. I gained perspective on what I really want in college and in my future. I know where I’ll be applying, I’ve already completed one app, and I’m looking to having all my essays started (AT LEAST started) by the time next Monday rolls around.

Overall, not a bad place to be.

But then, I think about senior year and I’m just like OH GOD WHY. Because I’m taking 7 AP classes again (that really doesn’t worry me, I know I can more than handle it), but on top of that, I’m applying to 20 colleges, having to write close to 30 essays in total, and upping my extracurricular commitments. As in, I’m president of Science National Honor Society, and I’ve made this elaborate list of possible things we could do, because it was an honor to even be elected president in the first place, so I’m determined to get stuff done and prove everyone wrong in that honor societies are just something to put on a resume. And also, I’m hoping to be the official soprano section leader in choir. And speaking of choir, I want to be more involved than I have been in the past. I’m definitely doing Solo & Ensemble this year, and hopefully I'll be able to get involved in whatever else pops up. Andddd, I’m supposed to create a UIL Spelling & Vocab club at our school with my two other teammates. Ha. We’ll see how that works out. All of this, and I’m not even taking into account all the other random stuff that could happen during the year.

So. That’s a crapload of stuff to do. And most of it’s going to be happening in that first semester.

If, after all that, I’m not completely burned out by Christmas, I will celebrate.

Also, just as an aside- the reason I made a new blog is because I figured I'd need to remember my senior year somehow, right? I already know I'm going to learn some pretty valuable lessons along the way, and I figure it's not too bad a thing to document this coming year for future reference. And also, see, the thing about me is that sometimes I need someone to talk to, and tumblr is usually that place for me. But it’s also insanely distracting, and NOT what I need in my life right now. I’m glad my followers understand and respect that.

So, anywho. It's past midnight. Officially August the 19th, and there is now officially one week left before school starts.

The game is on.