Day One: Meh.

I made some progress. Not with what I really wanted to, but still. Progress has been made. (The passive verb in that statement is really bothering my SAT-trained brain right now. That, and it's late.)

Anywho. I finally - finally! - sent in my written request to AP Services asking them for my free-response booklet from the AP English Lang and Comp exam. I'd been meaning to do it for more than a month, but I just never found the time. (Stupid, stupid me.) Oh well. At least I know it's done. Hopefully they'll get it by September 15th (crossing my fingers) because I really really want a copy of my essays. I feel like they're one of the best things I've ever written, and that's saying a lot. Especially that synthesis question about the monuments. Which is hilarious, because I always struggled with synthesis questions the most. I also kind of want my English teacher to read them, because I'm really curious to see what he thinks I would've gotten on each one of them. (He is an AP reader, after all, so I trust his judgment.)

What's more, I'm almost completely done with my ApplyTexas application! Thank goodness, because it was a pain. Seriously. It's probably the least user-friendly application in existence. They haven't given clear directions on what to do on parts of the app - I'm talking specifically about the activities section, because that took me LITERALLY THE ENTIRE DAY to fill out - and they don't even have a proper help/support center. Not only that, but the people I emailed couldn't even give me a straight answer. Like, are you serious? Texas, why. #iamsodone

Sorry. I'm seriously in the mood to rant about it, though. I wrestled with that stupid thing for hours before I finally finished it. Though in reality, I'm not done. They didn't give me enough space to elaborate about my activities or to list all my academic honors and awards, so I'll have to do that later in my expanded resume. And I have yet to start my scholarships application and essays.

Besides that, I'd been meaning to start making my binder covers for senior year, but thanks to dumb ApplyTexas, I didn't get around to that either.

This is just too much.

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I've been feeling stressed out today, which isn't really a good thing. Especially because school starts in literally a week. But I have. For the first time all summer, actually. I guess I'm just worrying too much, maybe to the point of obsession. That's probably what my friends would tell me. But it's not like they're applying to all the highly selective colleges in existence. (Well, almost all of them.)

And besides, it's not really like I can help it; I'm just that sort of person, to obsess and worry about things. I think I fixate on things a lot in my life. That explains much of my elementary and middle school experiences, to be honest. And that also explains my fangirl/tumblr side... Explains it really well.

Hm. Interesting. I just had a personal revelation! Those don't happen that often.

This day has been really interesting. Interesting, but not very productive. Gah.

Hopefully, tomorrow I'll get more work done. For one, I'm going to wake up earlier! And try to work on my essays some more. I really need to figure out what I'm going to do for that ApplyTexas essay....